Motherhood

Happy Mother's Day!(yesterday)

Rob & Drake made my Mother's Day just wonderful. 

I worked a night shift on Saturday and came home Sunday morning at 6am to beautiful white roses and 2 sweet cards that made me cry from Rob & Drake.

I went to sleep and Drake woke me up at 11am for a delicious breakfast of pancakes, hashbrowns, orange julius, and my favorite- bacon!

I'm sure Drake tried hard to give me a pleasant church experience on Mother's Day, but he didn't succeed. Let's just say this momma is looking forward to nursery in just 1 1/2 months.

After church, we headed to my parents house for dinner.

We had an always fabulous time and the men were great to cook and clean up. Then, I got a nap- glorious!

Great Mother's Day! If the weather would have cooperated, it would have been even better, but what's new in Utah?

I have loved reading everyone's Mother's Day posts and thoughts on motherhood. I, too, reflected a lot on my feelings of motherhood yesterday.

Being a mom is HARD WORK! I mean seriously! wow! Holy cow! Geeze louise! Some days are terrible and awful and I end the day feeling guilty because I may or may not have had thoughts of hurting my child during the day (just a joke people). 

EXAMPLE #1- 

Does your house ever look like this? (and this was the clean room, you should have seen the rest of the house). The other day I told my mom that the hardest transition for me has been to have such a messy house all the time. I feel like I can't ever keep up.

EXAMPLE #2-

(this one is kinda funny though. Drake knows exactly where the cereal is and when he wants a snack, he just walks on over and grabs a handful of cereal)

EXAMPLE #3-

Did you read my facebook status last Tuesday, May 3rd? Let me remind you what it said-

"How's your morning going? Listen to mine! I was working on my computer and looked up to see Drake playing with a bunch of little brown balls. There were more little brown specks all over the carpet. I walked over closer....AGH! Those aren't balls or specks- that is poop! Sasha pooped in the kitchen and Drake picked it up and spread it all over the carpet in the family room. I found about 30 pieces all over in the carpet. I have been disinfecting and scouring every inch of the carpet, yet I keep finding more! You have my permission to puke now. I'm about to!"


Those are just a few examples and to add to that list of why I think being a mom is hard-

Sleepless nights, hitting, tantrums, post-nursing saggy boobs, loss of dignity and makeup and cute clothes, and how about the realization that you are raising a child in an evil world and you must teach him to be righteous- YIKES!

I miss my clean house, holding my husbands hand, doing whatever I want when I want, and going to the movies weekly!

But do you want to know something miraculous? 

When I first heard Drake cry on the morning he was born, I immediately forgot about the pains and agonies of pregnancy.

A few weeks ago, when he first started calling me mom, I lost all care that my house was a complete mess.

And when Drake hugs me OH-so tightly or gives me a kiss or only wants ME to rock him, all those thoughts about ME and MY WANTS go straight out the door. I don't even care about my saggy boobs. I don't care about any of it. Honestly.

I LOVE BEING A MOM. I was born to be a mom. (Stealing my sister's words here) I know that it is my divine purpose and role and I'm beginning to understand why it is so important to have children. I learn more and more each day. I have learned so much about myself and my capacity to love. I am beginning to understand in a small way the love our Father in Heaven has for each of us because of the love I have for Drake. Some days, I honestly feel like my heart could burst out of my chest.

I'm so thankful to be a mother and feel like it is the greatest blessing Heavenly Father has ever given me. 

I am so thankful for MY MOM. She is my best friend and I am so grateful for the sacrifices she has made for me. See this post for more on her fabulousness. 

Overall, I just think MOTHERHOOD should be celebrated! Every grandmother, mother, mother of children in heaven, pregnant gal, or woman looking forward to being a mother should know how important they are. 

It took Rob & I 10 months to get Drake and it was one of the lowest points of my life. Aching and aching for a baby. I hurt for those that haven't had that experience yet, but know that their time will come whether it's in this life or the next. I hope that they aren't hurting too much today and that today, of all days, every woman knows how loved they are, especially by a Father above who is constantly aware of them and their struggles.

So, Happy Mum's Day to you all!